Friday, August 7, 2009

HALF WAY ... ah, the belly

I can't believe we are half way through our pregnancy. I would say half way to baby, but this dream of ours started over three years ago ... so we're getting close, much closer than we were, that's for sure.

I remember before our first pregnancy three years ago, Berilac and I were playing a board game with my in laws and a question was posed "what is your worst feature," it wasn't my question, but I knew immediately what my answer would be: my stomach. I've got a life long best friend whose tummy is flat as a board and I always wished mine were like that, it's not large by any means, but it's got an 'extra layer' let's say. I remember thinking about my answer to that game question days later when I learned that I was pregnant ... and how ironic it was that I was grumbling about a stomach that, at the time, had a teeny tiny baby developing inside - how could I not appreciate that stomach?!

Fast forward to this past March/April. My weight was a tad high with all of the medications and lack of being able to exercise, my stomach was used like a pin cushion as I plunged (for the third cycle) endless needles into my "extra layer" on my tummy. At this point, I was VERY grateful that I could pinch an inch there!

Once we learned that we were pregnant, I started sleepwalking through the pregnancy. Just living in a state of denial as each day passed ... grateful, but still detached, about our pregnancy status. At nearly 10 weeks pregnant my belly couldn't take it anymore; but this time, the difficulty was in the form of food aversions - I was having food aversions like nobodies business. I would go from desiring a certain type of food, then taking the time to prepare it, and by the time the plate was sitting in front of me - I couldn't stomach it anymore. I was scared that I wasn't able to eat enough to provide sustenance for the baby, (though I know that's not true! I was being irrational ok?)

Near the 14th or 15th week, I started to need to support my belly as I rolled over in bed. I thought for sure I was exaggerating needing to prop up my belly with a pillow as I laid on my side, but each night I had to continue to prop, and each week it got worse.

In my 16th week I started to feel what I liken to gas movement inside my belly. I am so aware of my body that I noticed this when it was just slightly present. I'd feel some "gas" processing, really down low in my abdomen and wait to fart ... the fart never came. But when this kept happening, and people started asking me if I'd started to feel the baby move I said "I'll let you know in two weeks" ... as I thought, if this feeling maintains - then I'll really know that it's baby! Well, it kept recurring and I was grateful to feel baby kicks so early.

As you saw in a previous post, my belly was nearly un-hideable at 16 1/2 weeks. It was at about that time that my stomach felt like it was bursting to pop. I swear, I'm not sure how many times I asked doctors/specialists/BTDT moms/etc if popping was a potential scenario! I wasn't afraid of popping at 16/17/18 weeks ... I was worried that my belly wouldn't stretch far enough to make it to the end of pregnancy! I was told by a doula at 17 weeks that my stomach hadn't "popped" yet (meaning that the uterus hadn't fallen forward yet) but when it did, I'd be more comfortable and have more room for food.

Well, I'm not sure if I've popped yet (by definition of my uterus "falling" forward) but my belly has definitely grown since you've seen it last. At last week's appointment my OB told me that my stomach is large and will continue to get very large given my body type (short torso). I have been measuring my waist ... you know like, 36-24-36 OW!!! and my waist is now up to par with Berilac's. Yes, the man who is almost one foot taller than me and double my weight. I have gained 10 inches around my mid section and I'm only half way!!! I am large and in charge baby!

So I will leave you now with the belly that I am so proud of!


Thank you God for the incredible stomach you have given me and the fact that it's been able to protect and take care of our little one these past 20 weeks.

28 comments:

  1. That is so cute! You look so proud (as you well deserve to be!).

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  2. You should be very proud of that beautiful belly! :)

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  3. I did that. (with some help)

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  4. Hey - I have that shirt! :)
    Great pic - you look awesome!

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  5. You look beautiful, Polly. :)

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  6. You look great Polly!

    I've always had issues with my stomach's extra layer too. It's wonderful to be pregnant and let it all hang out. I have a short torso too and there's nowhere to go but out.

    I'm so happy for you!

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  7. So beautiful! I love Berilac's comment. ;)

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  8. You look so wonderful and that belly is something to be proud of!! I didn't know about the uterus needing to pop and I can totally relate to the part of your post where you talk about food aversions (I haven't eating meat in about a week and a half - makes me gag to even think about putting it in my mouth!!). My food is seeming to sit high as well, kind of around my rib area to right up into my shoulders and low throat area. I guess I'm waiting for the uterus to figure out that it needs to pop too!!

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  9. Lovin' the belly! You'll find more often that your stomach will be jammed into your ribs and you won't want to eat as much, just a little at a time, more often;-) Our bodies are amazing- just the way God created them!!

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  10. Absolutely beautiful!!! and you do look happy! Congrats on getting halfway! I can't wait to see my belly like that:-) You really do look beautiful!

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  11. I loved this post and I love the belly!! :)

    You look great, girl!

    ((hugs))

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  12. What a beautiful belly shot! So happy for you! Looking forward to seeing more pics over the next few months :-)

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  13. Thanks so much for stopping by my blog to give me some tips and positive vibes! Really appreciate it! Congrats on overcoming IF and on that cute little bump of yours :)

    ~Cathy

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  14. Too cute! Have fun at your big u/s tomorrow!

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  15. BEAUTIFUL! You look positively gorgeous. :)

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  16. Oh my gosh, you are too cute! And absolutely glowing to boot!

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  17. Oh, your baby bump looks so good on you!

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  18. u're looking really cute and really gorgeous!

    ps When I saw you holding your belly, I almost cried...happy tears..happy tears for you.

    big hugs, sista!

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  19. You're picture is so cute. The baby bump looks great on you!

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  20. You are so cute!!! I can't believe you are 20 weeks already! I know it doesn't seem like it's gone by fast for you, though!!

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  21. I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE the belly shot- you look so happy!!! I also LOVE Berilac's comment- who cares if some help was needed??? We all need help in one or more areas of our lives!!! Congrats on 20 weeks!!!

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