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Tuesday, September 13, 2016
Four years later ...
Not that anyone reads this anymore, but just in case.
First of all, huge hugs to you for enduring the struggle. The pain of infertility, while deeply painful, also gave me the gift of compassion - and for that I am grateful. Yet, it's easy for me to be grateful when I have not two, but three beautiful children after our difficult journey. Back in the thick of the struggle - I had no idea I would be that girl. If you remember, Drudoc arrived in Dec 2009, Dimple came two years later (per that "most recent" 2012 post), and two and a half years after that (with the SAME dose using the SAME CCRM protocol we used for Drudoc, only instead using timed intercourse rather than retrieval and transfer - and this time only producing a whopping TWO mature follicles) we were fortunate to conceive sweet baby boy Wilibald who arrived in June of 2014 (8lbs 11oz, 20 in).
It was a difficult delivery of which I'll say, I hemorrhaged to the point of being borderline for needing a transfusion - which we declined and instead met with a high iron diet. I dealt with anemia for weeks, to the point where I just slept most days.
Again, I'm grateful to be on this side of our journey. Three little ones, growing up so quickly. I'm 39.5 now, Berilac is almost 42. This winter I'm having a tummy tuck done to repair the extensive damage those big babies (and really that big tummy) caused me. And this formerly infertile (I guess sub fertile is more accurate) ... womb will be closing up shop. It's hard to consider a vasectomy - to intentionally decline the opportunity for offspring - when so much of our journey was trying desperately to HAVE children.
With bittersweet goodbyes,
Polly (Berilac, Drudoc, Dimple, & Wilibald)
I am on the journey. Like the rest of you, I have a lot of issues. My life is all about the adventures of dealing with those issues. I am just trying to live the life that God has given me and in the process try to understand more about Him and who He's created me to be.
Words to live by ... (my current top five list of scripture verses I'm clinging to)
(Joel 2:25) "Then I will make up to you for the years that the swarming locust has eaten; the creeping locust, the stripping locust and the gnawing locust. My great army which I sent among you.
(Psalm 139: 13-14) For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
(Luke 1:37) For nothing is impossible with God
(Eph 3:20-21) Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.
(Habakkuk 3:17) "Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will be joyful in God my Savior."
2007/12 - Second attempt at fertility meds. (lower dose of injectibles w/timed intercourse). Almost cancelled and due to nine follies developing originally - eventually we triggered w/only one follie after coasting for a week.
2007/11 - Had to wait for cysts to shrink
2007/10 - Tried fertility meds for the first time (injectibles w/timed intercourse). Had to cancel cycle due to too many follices (seven!)
2007/09 - Third Pregnancy. 5w Natural Miscarriage, EDD 5/18/08
2007/08 - Identified Compound Hetero MTHFR
2007/07 - Identified Elevated FSH (11.7) and potential early menopause
2007/06 - First Meeting w/RE
2007/05 - HSG: All Clear, RPL Panel Mostly All Clear
2007/04 - Identified Hashimoto's Hypothyroidism
2007/03 - 10.5 week suspicious illness (started the night after 2nd miscarriage/D&C)
2007/04 - Hashimoto's Hypothyroid. Treatment: 100 mcg Synthroid
2007/07 - Elevated FSH (11.7). Treatment: "Get aggressive about family building!"
2006/09 - Rh Negative. Treatment: Rhogam shot each time there's potential for a baby's blood to mix with my blood (with each miscarriage or threatened miscarriage, at 28w pregnant and after delivery if baby's blood type is positive)