I know when friends are in the middle of cycling - I like to get updates, so I thought I'd oblige ...
Last night, as Berilac and I were heading to bed, preparing for the day ahead, I mentioned that I felt as if I am more bloated on the night before my CD9 appt than I was last cycle. I guess I know a little about my body ...
Today was my first monitoring ultrasound of this cycle. My endometrial lining was at an amazing 11.2mm and we had many follicles over 10mm. We had at least 4 that were >13mm. My doctor was very pleased and we might be doing the retrieval sooner than Friday. Last retrieval cycle on CD9 we had lots of follies over 8mm - so we've stimmed a bit faster this time - not too fast, but just right (so far). The doctor says that when follies are 10mm they are at a threshold, just b/c a follie gets to 10mm doesn't mean it's going to get to maturity in the end ... so the next couple of days are crucial. We go back on Sunday morning for the second monitoring appointment to see how many of those many 10mm follies will develop.
My doctor even went so far as to say - I think we can get 10 this time. And of course my cynical response (without skipping a beat) was "well I've heard that before" (and he knew that I meant I heard that from him!) and he responded with "I know and I still think we can really get 10"
I know I should be really focused on this cycle, but I'm not. Now, don't get me wrong I'm not missing doses - like I did last time! I'm really just focusing on knowing that God loves me regardless of what happens. Knowing God loves me is not something I feel in my gut (the struggle goes back to that dysfunction I mentioned in my last post) rather, it's something that I have to claim. So that's where I'm at emotionally.
Thank you for all your prayers. Please continue to pray for good progress, many healthful eggs retrieved, and most importantly my heart - that I'd persevere in this season of our lives with a soft heart.
Done, and Yet, Not Done
6 months ago