I know when friends are in the middle of cycling - I like to get updates, so I thought I'd oblige ...
Last night, as Berilac and I were heading to bed, preparing for the day ahead, I mentioned that I felt as if I am more bloated on the night before my CD9 appt than I was last cycle. I guess I know a little about my body ...
Today was my first monitoring ultrasound of this cycle. My endometrial lining was at an amazing 11.2mm and we had many follicles over 10mm. We had at least 4 that were >13mm. My doctor was very pleased and we might be doing the retrieval sooner than Friday. Last retrieval cycle on CD9 we had lots of follies over 8mm - so we've stimmed a bit faster this time - not too fast, but just right (so far). The doctor says that when follies are 10mm they are at a threshold, just b/c a follie gets to 10mm doesn't mean it's going to get to maturity in the end ... so the next couple of days are crucial. We go back on Sunday morning for the second monitoring appointment to see how many of those many 10mm follies will develop.
My doctor even went so far as to say - I think we can get 10 this time. And of course my cynical response (without skipping a beat) was "well I've heard that before" (and he knew that I meant I heard that from him!) and he responded with "I know and I still think we can really get 10"
I know I should be really focused on this cycle, but I'm not. Now, don't get me wrong I'm not missing doses - like I did last time! I'm really just focusing on knowing that God loves me regardless of what happens. Knowing God loves me is not something I feel in my gut (the struggle goes back to that dysfunction I mentioned in my last post) rather, it's something that I have to claim. So that's where I'm at emotionally.
Thank you for all your prayers. Please continue to pray for good progress, many healthful eggs retrieved, and most importantly my heart - that I'd persevere in this season of our lives with a soft heart.
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Polly - it's so nice to see you back on your blog. I do understand your need to take the time off and be away for a while, though. I just want to wish you all the best for this cycle. I hope your doctor is right - I hope that you do get at least 10 eggs.
ReplyDeleteThank you for all of your kindness and your caring thoughts on my blog, too. You have helped me so much.
So glad that you are posting again. I hope to continue reading about this cycle and your progress. I hope that you find peace and comfort in everything that you are doing, and I'm sending you tons of good vibes, best wishes and prayers for a terrific retreival. Good luck, Sweetie!
ReplyDeleteI am so glad to see an update, Polly!! I have been thinking about you and praying like mad for good things to come from your ER.
ReplyDeleteIt sounds like everything is going great. Keep us posted if you can. I'm here for you every step of the way. (hugs)
I am so happy to see you back again. I love reading your blog but also understand the need to get away. You have been and still are such an amazing friend!!! Whenever I'm down, you've always been there, to say something to make me cope with this better.
ReplyDeleteI will still continue to pray for you and hope this is the cycle for you and your DH. I'm having my fingers, toes and even Brandy's paws crossed for you.
((((((hugs))))))
So great to see an update, Polly! Even better to hear of new hopes for a new cycle. I will be keeping you in my prayers that you get 10 healthy, beautiful eggs at retrieval and that you are able to persevere no matter what. :::hugs:::
ReplyDeleteAmazing the details you remember from cycle to cycle! Sending continued prayers for eggs and hearts.
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