So during our first IVF appointment a few weeks ago our RE told us that it was OK to "try" this one cycle while we were waiting ... I was so hesitant - so scared to actually become pregnant again with a potentially chromosomally abnormal baby again. But after many discussions and lots of prayer ... we decided to risk it all. We were scared to say anything on the blog (when really we should have been asking for your prayers). It's bad enough to suffer through miscarriages, but to suffer through the "loss" of not getting pregnant a month when you were "trying" is also very hard and just adds to the pain already built up - I was really just emotionally protecting myself a bit.
Well folks - when it comes to us "trying" to get pregnant ... we are three for three. We are pregnant - again :-) I guess we're not going to try IVF in September!!
We are so excited and at the same time we are fighting off fear. Please pray for us that we will not let the enemies lies get to us - that we will be strong and steadfast in trusting our Lord for this healthy little (and we're talking tiny) baby in my womb.
I just took the test this morning - I still am having a hard time believing it's real ... but oh baby, let me tell you that I'm am going to enjoy this pregnancy - whether it's days long or 36 more weeks long (we are 4 weeks pregnant) I will be living it up, glowing like all pregnant ladies should. I'm going to start fantasizing about maternity wear, looking dreamily at beautiful pregnant bellies, (ok, maybe I was already doing these two things - so sue me!) taking advantage of every craving or "pregnancy" excuse ... and most of all praising my Lord for this blessing - no matter how long it lasts.
We covet your prayers for a healthy, full-term pregnancy. We covet your prayers for the absense of stress and an abandoning trust in the Lord.
I am currently on a boat off the coast of Baja Mexico, cruising North on the Pacific. (Yes, it turns out there is Internet access on the ship!) We are so excited we are shouting it from the bow of the ship "we're the king (and queen) of the world" (think quote from Titanic)
Yes, we know it's very early to be sharing this news ... but, what's new? That's how we did it the last two times. We know that if we miscarry again ... we want all of you surrounding us again, lifting us up in prayer, loving us through the pain. Besides if we only get weeks with our pregnancies (as opposed to ever being able to carry a baby to full term) we don't want to miss out of the joy of sharing the news - these fertility ailments have twice now stolen my ability to enjoy the second trimester of pregnancy, a baby shower, maternity clothes, the labor & birthing process (not that that's fun), the list goes on and on ... at least I can celebrate for awhile the life that's in my womb - and I will. The Lord givith and the Lord taketh away. Blessed be the name of the Lord.
Today, let's bless His name because He has given!